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I've been told recently by someone (buck) that I need to update my journal....but I haven't really had too much to say. Life is the same as it's been for a while. I'm still looking for a job, we're still continuing to get into debt more and more....and that's about it. o'well...the married life is oh so wonderful. :) I'll try to think of something more to write about later....

I cry like a baby yet my heart feels 100 years old

I've driven so fast that the world flys past, yet I couldn't out run the monster.

I've fallen asleep not knowing if I'd wake to see the dawn of a new day.

I've felt so alone that I've even looked forward to the company of my shadow.

I've searched high and low for the other half of my heart only to realize that he was standing in front of me the whole time.

I've seen the work of God in the perfect face of my newborn child.

I've experienced pain that would make a grown man cry and look forward to the day that I may experience it again.

I used to think that no one understood me...now I think it's me that doesn't understand.


In college I took an English class and the assignment was titled "Random Autobiography". There weren't too many instructions other than to write about yourself. These were a few pieces from what I'd written then. I have like 4 pages that I wrote and after I did it....I felt amazing. I have wanted to do it again but haven't sat down to do it. I think I will though. :) I need to. It's a release.

Well that guy finally called mw about the job. I knew it wasn't going to work when I talked to him Sunday...but of course he dragged me along for another week making me hope a little. It just really pisses me off that he did this. "the logistics wouldn't work out" MY ASS!!!! Whatever...now I just need to find something else fast. I don't want to give this apartment up. It's PERFECT!!!! We'll see though. I still need to talk to Jay first.

Well....I'm trying something new. At one point in my life I kept a Journal, but of course as usual....I stopped writting in it. I thought that I'd try it this way. I've read a few interesting entries from a few certain people and I felt compelled to try it myself. So now I will open myself up to all who have absolutely no clue who the hell I am :) So when I have something interesting to write about..I will be back.